Genre: Young-Adult, Contemporary, Realistic-Fiction, Teen Parenting
Purchased: Kindle Book My Rating: 3 Stars
It’s all Ryden’s fault. If he hadn’t gotten Meg pregnant, she would have never stopped her chemo treatments and would still be alive. Instead, he’s failing fatherhood one dirty diaper at a time. And it’s not like he’s had time to grieve while struggling to care for their infant daughter, start his senior year, and earn the soccer scholarship he needs to go to college.
The one person who makes Ryden feel like his old self is Joni. She’s fun and energetic—and doesn’t know he has a baby. But the more time they spend together, the harder it becomes to keep his two worlds separate. Finding one of Meg’s journals only stirs up old emotions, and Ryden’s convinced Meg left other notebooks for him to find, some message to help his new life make sense. But how is he going to have a future if he can’t let go of the past?
MY THOUGHTS <——- Do you see those 2 words? These are my thoughts and personal feelings about this story. Don’t let MY thoughts discourage you from reading this book. There are plenty of people who love it. I’m not one of them, seeing as I thought it was an okay read. As this may be a bit of a spoiler, I can’t see my way around it. I have to point out the situations and why I don’t agree with some things.
What makes this book hard for me to like? The sacrificing of a life for a baby. Don’t get me wrong, I admire people who choose to have kids. Those people, meaning responsible adults. Not a sick, high school girl who has a possible future. Sure, if she didn’t have the baby, there wasn’t a guarantee that she’d live long because of the cancer. But, she left a baby with a single teen boy who had his life ahead of him. Her parents wanted nothing to do with the baby, so it was only him and little Hope and his mom. His scholarship is on the line and he’s struggling. How can a person make such a decision like that? Love? To me, that was selfish. There’s nothing to do now that the baby is here. So the point is moot.
I admire Ryden, sort of. He seemed okay at times, but then he’d start with the regret. Two particular thoughts shocked me. He thought something along the lines of, I don’t want Hope to go away. Then in another thought, I wish Meg had gotten the abortion. That doesn’t make a lick of sense. First, you want Hope, then you say you wish she had been aborted. Which is it? He tried his best to be a great dad, but he longed for his life to go back to the way it was before there was even the possibility of a baby.
Getting to know Meg through her journals wasn’t the highlight of the story. It’s just basically their love story from the first day until she died. There were some sweet moments between them, but I already knew how it would end, so I didn’t really care how much she loved him. All because she wanted a part of herself to be left behind. SELFISH!! But, Lekeisha, how can you be so mean towards a dead girl? Because, I think that it was wrong of her to leave Ryden in that position. He was the father! He had as much a say in her terminating the pregnancy because that was his future and he knew that she was gonna die, just like she knew. Ugh, it took me weeks to get through this book, but I did.
And here comes Joni. So this story redeemed itself for me with her. It’s not your typical high school romance, because of Ryden’s single father status. But I liked the chemistry between him and Joni. She reacted to his situation just like any normal girl would, which made this very realistic. But, this wasn’t enough to make me love this book. I just can’t get over the situation as a whole. I’ll recommend it because everyone takes realistic fiction differently. For me, this is just an okay read that I have no desire to read again. I definitely wouldn’t let my younger cousins read it either. I’m not a fan of teen pregnancy, but it happens, so I may be biased. It’s just not for me guys.
Check out Tika @ Fangirl Confessions 5 star review for this book. She loved it!